Thinking

Chapter 1: The Bucket of Ice Water

“Wake up, you lazy little parasite!””

Tyler’s voice ripped through the kitchen just before a bucket of ice water crashed over eleven-year-old Sophie’s head. She jerked awake with a scream, her chair scraping violently across the tile as freezing water soaked her pajamas and streamed down her arms.

Her stepbrother doubled over laughing.

Across the kitchen, Dana, Sophie’s stepmother, covered her mouth with one hand. Not to hide her horror.

To hide her smile.

“Tyler, stop!”” Dana gasped between laughs.

“You’re going to make me spill my coffee!””

Sophie couldn’t answer. Her teeth were chattering so hard that the words wouldn’t come. Ice cubes rolled across the floor, collecting beneath the kitchen cabinets. Water dripped from her eyelashes onto the table where she had fallen asleep less than twenty minutes earlier.

Then a voice came from the back doorway.

“Sophie?!””

Everyone froze.

Standing there with a handbag on her shoulder and a paper grocery sack in her arms was Ruth Bennett, Sophie’s paternal grandmother.

For fourteen months, Ruth had been trying to see her granddaughter.

For fourteen months, Dana had told her there was nothing to see.

And now Ruth had arrived without calling, just in time to watch a sixteen-year-old boy empty a bucket of ice water over a sleeping child while his mother laughed.

The grocery sack slipped from Ruth’s fingers.

An orange rolled across the kitchen floor.

“What,” Ruth whispered, her face turning white, “is going on here?””

Dana recovered first.

“Ruth! Oh, my goodness. You should have called!”” She grabbed a dish towel from the counter and hurried toward Sophie.

“The kids were just playing around. You know how teenagers are.””

“She's eleven,” Ruth said.

“Tyler's sixteen. He's immature sometimes.””

“I said she's eleven.””

Ruth's voice had changed. It wasn't loud, but something in it made Tyler's grin disappear.

Sophie stood beside her chair, dripping onto the floor. Her thin shoulders trembled beneath her soaked pajama top. She looked at Ruth as though she were staring at someone from a dream.

Then she ran.

“Grandma!””

Ruth dropped to her knees just in time to catch her. Sophie buried her face against Ruth’s coat, gripping the fabric with both hands.

“It's okay, sweetheart,” Ruth murmured, wrapping her arms around the girl.

“I've got you. I've got you now.””

Sophie shook so violently that Ruth could feel it through both their clothes.

“I'm sorry,” Sophie whispered.

Ruth pulled back enough to look at her face.

“Sorry for what, baby?””

“For falling asleep.””

Ruth felt something cold settle in her stomach.

Behind them, Dana placed the dish towel on the table and forced a bright, impatient smile.

“Honestly, Ruth, she's been doing this for months. Falling asleep everywhere. We can't get her to stay awake long enough to do anything. Tyler was trying to wake her up.””

“By pouring ice water on her?””

“It was a joke.””

Sophie flinched when Tyler stepped closer.

“Come on, Soph,” he said, rolling his eyes.

“Don't act like I drowned you. You sleep like you're dead.””

“Tyler,” Dana warned lightly, “enough.””

But she wasn't looking at her son.

She was watching Ruth.

Ruth noticed.

She also noticed the empty bucket on the floor, the puddle beneath Sophie's chair, and the half-finished glass of milk beside a plate of untouched toast.

The milk had a faint white ring around the inside of the glass.

“Why is she sleeping so much?”” Ruth asked.

Dana sighed as though she were being forced to explain something painfully obvious.

“Grief. Depression. Her father died, remember? Some children don't handle loss very well.””

Michael had died fourteen months earlier, collapsing at work from a sudden heart attack at thirty-nine. He had been the kind of father who packed silly notes into lunch boxes and stayed up late helping Sophie memorize spelling words.

He had also been the only person in that house who never made Sophie feel like a burden.

After his funeral, Ruth had tried to take Sophie for weekends, then holidays, then even a simple afternoon at the park.

Dana had refused every time.

“She needs stability,” Dana had said.

“She needs her grandmother,” Ruth had answered.

“She doesn't want to see you, Ruth. She gets upset whenever I mention you.””

Ruth had believed her longer than she should have.

Now, holding Sophie in the kitchen, she wondered how many other things she had believed simply because she wanted to avoid another argument.

“Sweetheart,” Ruth whispered, brushing wet hair away from Sophie's forehead, “when was the last time you slept through the night?””

Sophie opened her mouth.

Dana answered first.

“She's always tired. We've taken her to the doctor. There's nothing wrong with her.””

Ruth looked at her.

“I asked Sophie.””

The kitchen became painfully quiet.

Sophie stared at the floor. Her bare toes curled against the cold tile.

Then she leaned close to Ruth's ear.

“Grandma,” she whispered, so softly that Ruth almost missed it, “I don't think I'm supposed to tell you.””

Ruth's arms tightened around her.

“You can tell me anything.””

Sophie glanced toward Dana.

Her stepmother was smiling again, but her fingers had closed around the handle of her coffee mug so tightly that her knuckles had gone pale.

Sophie swallowed.

“Grandma... she puts pills in my milk.””

For one suspended second, Ruth couldn't breathe.

She looked at Sophie.

Then at Dana.

Then at the glass.

Dana's face lost every trace of color.

“What did you just say?”” she asked.

Sophie immediately pressed herself against Ruth's chest.

“I didn't mean to—”

“That's enough,” Dana snapped.

The sweetness vanished from her voice so completely that Ruth felt the change like a slap.

“She's confused,” Dana continued quickly.

“She's been having nightmares. She makes things up when she's upset. You know how children can be.””

“No,” Ruth said.

“I don't know how this child can be anything except frightened.””

Dana set her coffee mug down with a sharp clink.

“I'm her legal guardian. You don't get to come into my house and accuse me of drugging a child.””

Ruth didn't argue.

She had learned something important in sixty-eight years of life: when someone was desperate to control a conversation, the truth was often the thing they were most afraid of hearing.

“I'm taking Sophie home with me for the afternoon,” Ruth said.

“You are not.””

“Then call the police and explain why you won't let a freezing, terrified eleven-year-old leave with her grandmother.””

Dana stared at her.

Tyler shifted awkwardly near the refrigerator.

“Mom, maybe just let her go for a while,” he muttered.

Dana swung toward him.

“Stay out of this.””

Ruth rose slowly, keeping one arm around Sophie.

“I need dry clothes for her.””

“I'll get them,” Dana said.

“No. I'll take her upstairs.””

“Ruth, this is ridiculous.””

“Then you won't mind me looking after her.””

For a moment, the two women stared at one another across the wet kitchen floor.

Then Dana smiled.

It was a small, controlled smile that never reached her eyes.

“Of course. Take her upstairs. Get her cleaned up. But she's coming home tonight.””

Ruth didn't promise anything.

She led Sophie toward the stairs, one careful step at a time.

Halfway up, Sophie stopped and looked back.

Dana was standing beside the kitchen table, staring at the glass of milk.

Her face had become so still that she looked like a photograph.

Then she noticed Ruth watching.

Dana lifted the glass.

And poured the milk down the sink.

Ruth's heart began to pound.

She took Sophie into the guest bedroom, locked the door, and wrapped her in a warm towel. As she helped the girl change into an old sweatshirt she kept in her car, she noticed how thin Sophie's wrists were.

“Have you been eating, sweetheart?””

Sophie nodded.

“Sometimes.””

“Sometimes?””

“I'm hungry when I wake up. But then I'm sleepy again.””

Ruth sat beside her on the bed.

“How long has this been happening?””

Sophie rubbed her palms against the towel.

“Since the winter. I think.””

“Since the winter?””

“I don't know exactly.””

Ruth forced herself to breathe slowly.

“Tell me what happens when you drink the milk.””

Sophie looked toward the locked door.

“Please don't tell her I told you.””

“I won't let anyone hurt you for telling the truth.””

Sophie began picking at a loose thread on the sweatshirt.

“After dinner, Dana gives me a glass of warm milk. She says it helps me sleep because I'm sad about Daddy. At first, I thought it was nice.””

Her voice cracked on the word Daddy.

“Then I started falling asleep at school. Sometimes I can't even remember getting into bed. I wake up with my clothes on, and I don't know how many hours have passed.””

Ruth pressed a hand against her mouth.

“Did you tell Dana?””

“I told her I didn't like feeling sleepy.””

“What did she say?””

Sophie looked down.

“She said I was ungrateful. She said Daddy would be disappointed in me if I made things difficult for her.””

Ruth felt anger rise so quickly that she had to look away.

Michael had adored his daughter. Even during his final weeks, when he was exhausted from work, he had never missed their nightly ritual of reading one chapter of a book together.

He would never have called Sophie ungrateful for being tired.

“Your daddy would never be disappointed in you for telling someone you're scared,” Ruth said.

“Never.””

Sophie began to cry silently.

Ruth gathered her into her arms.

For several minutes, neither of them spoke.

Then Sophie lifted her head.

“Grandma?””

“Yes, baby?””

“I tried to stop drinking it.””

Ruth felt her stomach tighten.

“How?””

“I poured it into the plant by the kitchen window.””

“What plant?””

“The little green one Daddy bought me. The one in the blue pot.””

Ruth remembered it. Michael had bought Sophie a small peace lily after she had helped him repaint the kitchen. Sophie had insisted it was her responsibility to keep it alive.

“What happened to it?””

“It died.””

Sophie wiped her nose with the sleeve of her sweatshirt.

“I thought maybe I was giving it too much milk. But then Dana found out.””

“What did she do?””

“She made me stand beside the counter while she poured another glass. She watched me drink every drop.””

Ruth closed her eyes for one brief moment.

When she opened them, her decision was made.

Sophie was not going back into that kitchen alone.

“Listen to me carefully,” Ruth said.

“You're coming home with me today. I'll speak to the people who need to help us. And until we know what's happening, nobody is going to make you drink anything you're afraid of.””

Sophie stared at her grandmother.

“Really?””

“Really.””

A soft knock came at the door.

“Ruth?”” Dana called.

“We need to talk.””

Ruth didn't answer.

The doorknob turned.

The lock held.

Dana tried it again.

Then her voice dropped to a whisper.

“You need to open this door. Right now.””

Sophie grabbed Ruth's hand.

“Grandma,” she breathed, “she knows I told you.””

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And from the other side of the door came a sentence that made Ruth reach for her phone.

“If you take that child out of this house, you'll regret what happens next.””

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