Thinking

Chapter 7: The First Copy

I didn't sleep that night.

Every time I closed my eyes, I saw my sister standing beneath the pastel balloons, holding my letter as if my grief were a weapon she had finally learned how to use.

Then I saw my mother's face when I asked whether she knew what was written on the third page.

Yes.

She had known.

She had read every word and handed the pages to Carly anyway.

At six the next morning, I was sitting at the kitchen table with a mug of coffee I hadn't touched. Ty stood at the counter, packing two sandwiches into a paper bag because he knew I would forget to eat again.

My phone lay between us.

Carly hadn't messaged since midnight.

Mom had sent one text.

Please don't make a permanent decision about our relationship while you're upset.

I read it twice, then turned the screen toward Ty.

He shook his head.

“She still doesn't understand.””

“What if she does understand?”” I asked.

“What if she understands perfectly and simply doesn't think what she did was wrong?””

Ty put the sandwiches in the refrigerator.

“Then the answer won't come from another argument. It'll come from what she does next.””

My phone rang.

Grandma.

“Darling,” she said, “I've been thinking about the note.””

I sat straighter.

“The one inside Grandpa's envelope?””

“Yes. I need you to come over before your father does anything foolish.””

“What is Dad planning?””

“To confront your mother at her house, her workplace, or possibly the grocery store if she happens to be buying milk. Your father is not at his most strategic when he's angry.””

Despite everything, I nearly smiled.

“I'll come now.””

Ty grabbed his keys.

“We're both coming.””

Grandma didn't object.

When we arrived, Dad was already at her house, pacing between the living room and the front window. He had changed into a clean shirt, but his hair looked as though he had run his hands through it a hundred times.

“Have you spoken to Mom?”” I asked.

“No.””

“Has she contacted you?””

“Three times. I haven't answered.””

He stopped pacing.

“Rachel, I owe you an explanation about the key. I know that.””

“I don't need you to apologize every five minutes, Dad. I need you to help us find out what happened.””

He nodded, visibly relieved to have something practical to do.

Grandma was waiting beside the cedar chest.

The hidden compartment stood open. Inside it lay Grandpa's old letter to Mom, the letter he had written to me, and a small folded sheet of paper that hadn't been there when Grandma first showed us the envelope.

I picked it up.

The handwriting was familiar.

Not Grandpa's.

Carly's.

I knew it from the Christmas cards she had sent me every year since we were children. She always formed her lowercase g with an unusually long loop, and she put little circles over her lowercase i's.

The words on the sheet matched the sentence Grandma had read to me the night before.

Linda, if you ever decide to tell your daughters the truth, start with the day you took Rachel's letter.

Below it was another line.

If she denies it, ask her what she did with the first copy.

I looked at Grandma.

“This wasn't in Grandpa's letter?””

“No. I was mistaken when I read it to you over the phone. The paper was folded behind his letter. I thought the handwriting was a continuation until I looked more carefully.””

“Why didn't you tell me last night?””

“I didn't notice until afterward. My eyes were tired, and I was upset.””

She touched the edge of the paper.

“I'm sorry.””

I looked at Carly's handwriting again.

“Why would she leave this?””

Dad frowned.

“Maybe she wanted us to find it.””

“That's what a clue is,” Ty said.

“The question is what she's trying to tell us.””

I unfolded the paper completely.

On the reverse was a date written in the same blue ink.

March 18.

The date on the copy-shop receipt.

My heart began beating faster.

“Carly had this paper the day Mom made the copies.””

“Or she wrote it that day,” Dad said.

Grandma went back to the letter.

“Your grandfather's note tells us something important. He wanted Linda to face what happened to her. He wanted her to stop passing pain down through this family. Whatever Carly is trying to reveal, it may have something to do with the way your mother handled his letter.””

I thought about Mom standing in her kitchen, insisting she had spent her life being told to suffer quietly.

She had been telling the truth about one thing.

She had suffered.

But pain did not give her the right to decide how everyone else should suffer, too.

“I'm going to the copy shop,” I said.

Dad reached for his jacket.

“I'll drive.””

“No,” I replied.

“You can come, but I'm asking the questions.””

He nodded.

The copy shop was on the edge of town, squeezed between a nail salon and a store that sold used furniture. A little bell rang above the door when we entered.

Behind the counter, a woman in her sixties was sorting stacks of paper.

“Good morning,” she said.

“What can I help you with?””

Dad placed the receipt on the counter.

“We're trying to clarify a transaction from March eighteenth. A woman came in to reproduce a three-page document.””

The clerk adjusted her glasses.

“We handle a lot of documents.””

“I understand,” I said.

“This was a private letter. The customer may have ordered multiple copies.””

I watched her expression.

She looked at the receipt, then at me.

“Are you the person who wrote it?””

I nodded.

She sighed.

“I wondered whether somebody would come back about that job.””

My stomach dropped.

“Why?””

“Because the woman who brought it in seemed unusually concerned about confidentiality. She asked whether we kept digital files after printing. We don't keep them longer than necessary, but we explained our standard procedure.””

“Was she alone?”” Dad asked.

“Yes.””

“Can you tell us her name?””

The clerk looked uncomfortable.

“I don't generally give out customer information.””

I swallowed.

“My mother brought in a letter I wrote to my daughter who died before she was born. She copied it without my permission. Then my sister read it aloud at a party in front of forty people.””

The woman's face changed.

“Oh.””

She looked down at the receipt again.

“I'm sorry.””

“I don't need you to tell me anything private about your customer,” I continued.

“I just need to know whether she ordered one set or more than one.””

The clerk studied the paper.

After a moment, she turned it over.

“There was a handwritten note on the original order slip. Two sets, three pages each.””

I felt Ty's hand close around mine.

“Two sets?””

“Yes. The customer wanted two complete copies. I remember because she asked us to collate them separately rather than staple them together.””

“Did she take both?””

The clerk nodded.

“She checked each set before leaving.””

Dad leaned forward.

“Did she bring the original document back with her?””

“Yes.””

I closed my eyes briefly.

Mom had not simply copied the letter for Carly.

She had ordered six pages of copies, taken both sets, and returned with the original document.

“Did you keep the order slip?”” I asked.

The clerk hesitated.

“I'm afraid we usually discard them.””

“Usually?””

She opened a drawer behind the counter and pulled out a thin folder.

“Sometimes we keep unusual transactions for billing questions. I don't know whether this one is here.””

She flipped through several sheets.

Then she stopped.

“This is it.””

She slid the page across the counter.

The customer's name was written at the top.

*Linda Albright.*

Beneath it were the words two sets, three pages each.

But at the bottom of the form, someone had written a note that had not appeared on the receipt.

Keep first set separate. Do not mark or staple. Customer will collect after reviewing second set.

I stared at the sentence.

“Who wrote that?””

The clerk looked closer.

“I did. Your mother asked me to keep the first set separate while she checked the second. She said she'd decide whether she needed both.””

“Did she come back?””

The woman pursed her lips.

“Yes.””

“When?””

“Later that afternoon.””

Dad gripped the counter.

“What happened?””

“She collected the first set. She'd left it here after saying there was a problem with the print quality on one of the pages.””

“Was there a problem?”” I asked.

The clerk shook her head.

“Not that I could see.””

I felt sick.

Mom had returned to the shop to collect the first copy separately.

She had made sure both sets existed, then retrieved the one she wanted kept apart.

“What did she do with it?”” I whispered.

The clerk looked at me sadly.

“I don't know.””

We left the shop with a photograph of the order slip, which the clerk had agreed to let us take after I showed her the messages proving the document had been shared without my permission.

Outside, Dad leaned against his truck.

“She made two sets,” he said.

“One for Carly. One for herself.””

“That's what the evidence suggests,” I replied.

“But why keep the first set separate?””

I thought of the letter, the old envelope, the hidden compartment, and the warning in Carly's handwriting.

“Because there was something about the first set that mattered to her.””

Ty opened the passenger door.

“Or because she was planning something that required a copy nobody else knew about.””

My phone vibrated.

Carly had finally replied to my message from the night before.

I didn't write that note to hurt you. I wrote it because Mom promised me she would tell you the truth, and she never did.

I typed back.

What truth?

The typing indicator appeared immediately.

Then disappeared.

Then appeared again.

Finally, she sent one sentence.

Meet me at Grandma's. I'll bring the first copy.

I showed the message to Dad and Ty.

Dad stared at the screen.

“She's had it all this time?””

“I don't know,” I said.

“But we're about to find out.””

As we drove back to Grandma's house, I watched the streets blur past.

For months, I'd believed the secret was a missing letter.

Now I understood that the missing letter was only the thing everyone had been using to hide behind.

May you like

The real secret had been waiting in our family for decades.

And Carly was finally willing to name it.

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