Chapter 1: The Dress She Tried to Destroy
The first thing I heard was the scream.
Not fear.
Not pain.
Excitement.
The kind of excitement people have when they believe they have finally destroyed something precious to someone they hate.
I dropped the curling ribbon in my hand and ran upstairs, taking the steps two at a time.
When I reached my bedroom, I stopped so abruptly that my shoulder struck the doorframe.
My white coming-of-age dress was hanging in the center of the room.
And blue paint was dripping down it.
Sky-blue. Bright. Vicious.
It stained the bodice, crawled across the delicate waistline, and spread over the flowing skirt. Thick drops fell from the hem and splattered against the hardwood floor.
For months, I had protected that dress as if it were made of glass.
Now it looked like someone had murdered a dream.
My younger sister, Brianna, stood beside it, holding an almost-empty container of blue paint.
She was sixteen, two years younger than me, and had perfected the art of making cruelty look like innocence.
When she saw me, she didn't even bother to hide her smile.
"Oh," she said, tilting her head.
"You're home early.""
I stared at the dress.
Then at the paint on her fingers.
Then at the tiny streak of blue on the sleeve of her pink sweatshirt.
"What did you do?""
Brianna glanced at the mess.
"I slipped.""
"You slipped?""
"Yes, Mia. It's not a difficult concept.""
I stepped closer to the dress. The paint was still wet, soaking through the fabric.
"You threw paint on my dress.""
"Don't be ridiculous.""
"You were holding the paint.""
"And now I'm holding it. Congratulations. Your detective work is incredible.""
I turned toward her.
"Why would you do this?""
Her smile faded, replaced by the familiar expression she wore whenever she wanted to make me feel guilty for existing.
"Because I'm sick of you.""
The words landed harder than I expected.
"Brianna—"
"No."" She dropped the paint container onto my desk, where it rolled against my jewelry box.
"I'm sick of Dad talking about how wonderful you are. I'm sick of Mom acting like you're the responsible one. I'm sick of everyone treating you like some perfect little princess.""
"I'm not a princess.""
"Then stop acting like one.""
I looked at the ruined dress again.
It had taken me eight months to save enough money to buy it. I had worked weekend shifts at a bakery, folded boxes at a local shop, and skipped countless little things my classmates bought without thinking twice.
Every dollar had gone toward that dress.
Not because I thought a beautiful outfit would magically fix my life.
Because my coming-of-age ceremony was the one day I had allowed myself to believe I might feel special.
My biological father had died when I was eleven. My mother, Denise, remarried two years later, and although my stepfather, Mark, wasn't cruel in the obvious ways, he had always made it clear that Brianna was his daughter and I was the extra responsibility that came with marrying my mother.
My mother insisted she loved us equally.
But love, I had learned, could sound very different depending on which daughter was speaking.
"What is all this noise?"" Mom demanded.
She appeared in the doorway, followed by Mark, my aunt Linda, and Grandma Evelyn.
I pointed at the dress.
"Brianna ruined it.""
Mom looked at the blue paint.
Then she looked at Brianna.
"What happened?""
Brianna's entire face changed.
Her shoulders slumped. Her lower lip trembled. She even managed to make her paint-covered hands look like evidence of an innocent mistake.
"I was trying to move the container," she whispered.
"I didn't mean to.""
"That's a lie," I said.
Mom sighed.
"Mia, please don't start.""
I stared at her.
"Don't start? Look at my dress!""
"We can clean it.""
"It's acrylic paint! It's soaked into the fabric!""
"Then we'll buy another one.""
"You said we couldn't afford another one!""
Mom's jaw tightened.
"Don't raise your voice at me.""
Mark stepped into the room and examined the dress for approximately three seconds.
"Well, it's unfortunate," he said.
"But these things happen.""
I turned toward him.
"She admitted she did it because she's jealous!""
"I said I'm sick of hearing about you," Brianna snapped.
"That doesn't mean I threw paint on your stupid dress.""
"You literally have paint on your hands!""
"Maybe I got it there when I slipped!""
Aunt Linda folded her arms.
"Honestly, Mia, it's just a dress.""
I looked at her.
She had arrived that afternoon carrying a designer handbag and complaining that the restaurant reservation for tomorrow wasn't fancy enough.
"It was the only dress I could afford," I whispered.
Grandma Evelyn shook her head.
"You girls have been competing since you were little. Sometimes you need to learn to let things go.""
"Why do I always have to let things go?""
Nobody answered.
I looked at my mother.
"Do you even care?""
Her expression hardened.
"Of course I care. But I won't have you accusing your sister of terrible things over an accident.""
"Then ask her why she was alone in my room with paint!""
"Because I wanted to borrow your mirror!"" Brianna shouted.
"You have a mirror!""
"Not one this big!""
Mark rubbed his temples.
"Enough. We are not ruining the entire evening over a dress.""
I felt something inside me go strangely quiet.
The entire evening.
That was what mattered to him.
Not the dress.
Not my ceremony.
Not the fact that my sister had deliberately destroyed something I had worked for while everyone downstairs was preparing decorations for tomorrow.
The inconvenience of my pain was the real problem.
Brianna crossed her arms.
"Maybe if Mia didn't act like everything had to be about her, people wouldn't be so tired of her.""
Mom gave her a warning look, but there was no real anger behind it.
Then she turned back to me.
"Apologize to your sister for calling her a liar.""
I blinked.
"What?""
"You heard me.""
"She destroyed my dress.""
"And you're making accusations you cannot prove.""
I laughed once. It sounded nothing like laughter.
"She told me she hates hearing how perfect I am. What more do you need?""
"Enough!"" Mark barked.
The room fell silent.
He pointed toward the hallway.
"Everyone downstairs. Now.""
For one foolish second, I thought he meant Brianna.
Instead, he looked directly at me.
"Mia, you need to calm down before you embarrass yourself tomorrow.""
I stared at him until my eyes began to burn.
Then I nodded.
"Fine.""
Mom narrowed her eyes.
"What does that mean?""
"It means get out of my room.""
"Mia!""
"Please."" My voice shook.
"Just get out.""
Mom muttered something about disrespect. Mark led Grandma and Aunt Linda into the hallway. Brianna followed them, pausing at the door to look back at me.
Her gaze dropped to the dress.
Then she smiled.
"Guess you'll have to wear something ugly tomorrow.""
The door closed.
I locked it.
For several minutes, I didn't move.
The house carried on around me. I heard footsteps downstairs, the clink of plates, and my mother laughing at something Aunt Linda said.
They were preparing for my ceremony while I stood alone beside its destruction.
I wiped my cheeks with the backs of my hands.
Then I took the dress off its hanger.
If nobody in this house was going to save my night, I would save it myself.
I spread old towels across the floor, filled bowls with water, and searched every cleaning tutorial I could find. I tested the paint with cotton swabs, working from the edges inward, but the blue had already settled into the fibers.
Scrubbing harder would only damage the fabric.
So I stopped trying to erase the damage.
Instead, I opened the drawer where I kept my art supplies.
There were fabric pens, embroidery thread, a few tubes of textile paint, and a set of tiny brushes I'd bought with my birthday money.
I stared at them.
Then I looked at the dress.
The paint had spread in irregular streaks down the skirt, but some areas remained almost untouched. The blue was ugly because it had no purpose.
What if I gave it one?
I grabbed my sketchbook.
For the next several hours, I drew, crossed out, redrew, and tested ideas on scraps of white fabric. I turned the streaks into petals, then vines, then the outlines of flowers. I searched for ways to make the color permanent without ruining the delicate material.
At midnight, I began painting.
At two in the morning, my fingers cramped.
At three, I accidentally smeared a blue line and nearly threw the brush across the room.
At four, I sat on the floor and cried into my knees.
Then I remembered Brianna's smile.
I picked up the brush again.
I worked until the blue streaks no longer looked like stains. They became cascading flowers, delicate branches, and clusters of blossoms that seemed to spill from the bodice toward the hem.
I added silver details where the paint had been thickest, using tiny strokes that caught the light.
It wasn't the dress I'd bought.
It was something else.
Something nobody could purchase from a rack or copy from a photograph.
By five-thirty, dawn had begun to pale the window.
My back hurt. My eyes burned. My hands looked as though I'd been painting a ceiling.
But when I lifted the dress toward the morning light, I forgot all of it.
The blue flowers shimmered against the white fabric.
For the first time that night, I smiled.
A knock came at my door.
"Mia?"" Mom called.
"Are you awake?""
Another voice followed.
Brianna.
"Oh, my God. She actually stayed up all night.""
The handle rattled.
I unlocked the door.
Mom stood in the hallway wearing her robe, her coffee cup balanced in one hand. Brianna leaned against the wall beside her, already dressed for the morning, with her phone raised as if she planned to record my breakdown.
Then they saw me holding the dress.
Mom's eyebrows rose.
Brianna lowered her phone.
"What did you do to it?"" she whispered.
I didn't answer.
I simply turned the dress toward the light.
The blue flowers glittered.
Mom's mouth fell open.
Brianna took one step forward, studying the design. For the first time in her life, she looked at something I had made without immediately finding a reason to mock it.
Then her expression changed.
She looked at the flowers.
She looked at my face.
And she whispered the words that made my stomach turn cold.
"Mom, you have to tell her.""
I lowered the dress.
"Tell me what?""
Brianna glanced toward the staircase.
For once, she wasn't smiling.
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Because whatever she'd just remembered, it was worse than ruining my dress.
And it had something to do with my ceremony.